Snow falls all around
I get older, this house gets smaller
The sights and sounds are the same but none are familiar
Am I changing so much the world has stopped?
The cell is decorated with lights and angels, but there is no escape.
The words fill my head but miss the page
A shaky train will take me where I belong how long must I wait?

It's not the end that i fear with each breath, it's life that scares me to death

So, I've done next to nothing to day. Now normally I like days like this. Now I just feel useless. There are so many life changes I want to make but I am not doing anything to do any of it. I mean, yes I moved to Chicago, but since being there, I am not doing anything. I stay in mostly. One of the greatest multicultural centers of the country and I see the same ten blocks everyday.

There's a light on in Chicago...

So, who's missed me? I've missed me, that is for sure.

So I have successfully survived my first semester at Collumbia (in chicago, not in NY). I have lived three months and a half in Chicago without getting mugged or raped. And I am home for six weeks for break. So much has happened that I think six weeks might drive me crazy.

My crazy time in Chicago thus far goes something like this. Moved in that first week and did a lot of exploring with people. Started to go to local shows. Turned 21 at AK (that was amazing.) Hit up some more shows (loving the local scene.) Started making friends, wish I was better at it, but still the friends I've made have been great so far. Then I found out my grandma was really sick and that was a shock we weren't expecting, but things happen for a reason, and as sad as it is to say, I don't think anything else would have brought all the family together. She's not doing well now, and we can only pray that she makes it through the holidays. Thank you to everyone who has been supportive and understood when I didn't want to be around people. I spent a week with family, and came back to school a little less motivated to spend as much time out as I had, but I did manage to attend some fabulous shows and have a great time. I went back to BV for halloween which was fun, and then I was thrust into the last part fo the semester. Projects right and left, it seems I had forgot how close Chicago was. Though it did start to get cold, and I lost all motivation to go outside. I manged to hang out with practically no one before everyone went home, and that sucks, but I've got some new babysitting gigs which is awesome yay cash. So all in all I am winding down 2008. Look forward to new posts on a much more regular basis.

And today's Song of the Moment (as selected by iPod shuffle feature)... drumroll please...

The one, the only, the mildly appropriate - Summer Skin - Death Cab for Cutie

Lyrics:
Squeaky swings and tall grass
The longest shadows ever cast
The water's warm and children swim
And we frolicked about in our summer skin

I don't recall a single care
Just greenery and humid air
Then Labor day came and went
And we shed what was left of our summer skin

On the night you left I came over
And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders
Our brand new coats so flushed and pink
And I knew your heart I couldn't win
Cause the season's change was a conduit
And we'd left our love in our summer skin

I don't really have much to say about this right now. Everything changes with time, the seasons, our feelings, who we think we are, who we thought we'd been. Nothing stays the same, get used to it.

Love, peace and homemade egg nog,
Anna

::ps I apologize for the lack of smexy formatting, I'll get on that later soon (it's a relative soon Like feb-ish I'll have my own computer again and the ability to format much easier. Love me.)